I'm stuck again. A bit.
It's fear. It's always fear.
Sometimes I just want to walk along a beach with my feet in the sand and the ocean.
or sit by a campfire.
look at the Stars ...
all these things stop my mind. they are primal and make me know that Life is all something so precious and very special.
my 'little self' can never understand encompass it. but here I feel 'connected'. at peace.
so we try ... with our arms open wide.
to understand the plan ... and our place ... in all this
tomorrow i go back to work. i've essentially taken 6 months off since i quit my job as a security guard doing 12 hour night shifts for 4 years - which was killing me.
(shoulda quit that job 2 years before i did).
meanwhile my pension has kicked in. and everybody was right: you can't live on it.
so back to work.
i'm going to be a Greeter at a huge appliance/hardware/home building place. it's not as anaemic as it sounds - actually useful - as 80 percent of the people that come in the door don't know where to find what they're looking for.
i don't know either. yet.
so i'm worried ... and nervous. hoping this will all work out .... and permit me to survive.
maybe it won't. maybe God has a different plan.
he often does. i might not like his idea, but it's usually better than mine.
i just can't see the big picture. yet.
in looking at my blog ... it's mind bloggling.
i got all this Ned Kelly stuff. and i wonder: is anybody really interested? would anybody really care?
1906 The Story Of The Kelly Gang
1920 The Kelly Gang
1923 When The Kellys Were Out
1934 When The Kellys Rode
1951 The Glenrowan Affair
1960 Stringybark Massacre
1960 Ned Kelly
1970 Ned Kelly
1993 Reckless Kelly
2003 Ned Kelly
how much should i use? how deep should i go? is Crocodile Dundee a Western?
maybe i outta just jump over this stuff and go straight to Quigley and Snowy Mountain???
I'm frozen with indecision ... like a jumbuck in the headlights. and no handy billabong.
OK .. i've decided on a smattering of Kelly - some of it IS good.
Then on to the Classics ...